Special Place In My Heart..

It's has been 2 days now, I did not receive any text message from Faarhad.. I wonder if he is out of mobile credit? Mmm.. yeah, I believe that he is out of his mobile credit (gotta have a positive thinking right?!). Since he left to Johor Bahru on Saturday morning, I did not know what had happen to him.

Sometimes, I felt that I'm a fool for not accepting his invitation the other day.. as what Fuad said to me, 'leave all your negative thinking behind and just meet him!'. I guess that you're right! And I realized now, that I had made a silly mistake. Well, shit happens! I wish I had the second invitation soon..

Then, out of nowhere, a few faces appeared in my mind.. telling me that there are a few people had a special place in my heart. I really missed them.. I have not been seeing these people for quite sometimes.

These are the people that made me happy and made me looking at my life in a different way, giving me their attention and had given me a reason to live until today..

Azlan Shahawarudin

Zahrul Effendi

Norhamzie

Mohd Farish

To: Sham..

Mmm.. jangan marah kalau aku nak paparkan gambar kat bawah tu. Saja je nak buat kau 'makan hati'! Tapi gambar ni gambar lama sebelum Remy glamour macam sekarang ni.. tapi dia masih lagi macam dulu. Kalau terserempak ngan aku, still tegur-menegur.. tak sombong.

So, kau tatap la puas-puas gambar kat bawah ni yeh.. he.. he.. : )

To all my MOKUL friends, please don't think that I 'gila glamour'.. just to show the pic to Remy's fanatic fan! To Catz Carerra, don't be angry will ya! Anyway, I'm glad to be one of Remy's friend. :)

Another Text Messages..

When I woke-up this morning at 10.15am, saw a text message in my mobile in-box from Faarhad. 'Sorry, I was fall asleep last night while doing my paperwork. Serious.. I've just woke-up' he said. I paused, didn't know what to reply. I've been in silence for about half a day!

I only reply to Faarhad's text message at 2.36pm. He replied, 'Yes I am angry with you.. :@ but not anymore! :) I falls asleep in front of my PC last night!'. 'I'm angry caused it has been 17 years we have not seen each other, not 17 months! But I angry no more! :)' he replied again.

While having my dinner break at work today, I sent him a text message asking about that 'keep it between us' thing he sent last night. He replied, 'I mean, between our schoolmates. But other than them is ok with me.. just with our ex-MBS and our old friends, that's all.' He said, 'No offence, I prefer it that way. Yes, I know you feel weird about it, but you know our friends, sometimes they will make a big fuss of it'.

Seriously, I just don't understand why he said that.. well, I have to respect his request. From now on, I will have to keep our friendship or shall I say 'relationship' (?? get me?) to myself and my dear blog. So, you guys, I hope you know what to do.. and hope you guys understand my situation here.. :(

Wanna meet?

At 10.49pm, I received a text message from Faarhad, my 'Long Lost Friend' saying hello. I've just finished reading his blog from his MySpace 5 minutes ago! All his stories, feelings, happy and sad has been typed down in that blog. Now, after I read the blogs, I really understand how's his perspective towards his life, his vision and mission.

We've been replying text messages until about a 11.48pm, a touching message received from him, 'Sincerely, tis a great n happy feeling to finally get in touch with U after so long.. I really missed U a lot..'. Then he said, 'Time has passed, n I too have changed a lot.. maybe older, different appearance, etc, but I still believe that I am still the same, deep inside.. I have always cherished our great memories together as a close friends.' Aww.. he was so sweet. I do believe that he has not changed a lot inside, compared to his appearance now.

'I was touched by your presence.. missed U. Now :-) coz I've found U after so long.. :-)' he said to me. He still speaks and talk (in his text messages) just like the old days when we shared our special moments together. He's the same old Faarhad! I'm so glad.. :)

Right after work, I drove heading to Bandar Baru Sentul, to Sani's place visiting him for Hari Raya. Still replying text messages from Faarhad.. 'About me contacting U again, if possible, just keep it between us. Really appreciate it' his text said. Mmm..?? What is this suppose to mean? Why should me and him keeping this between us only? I was wondering..

In my text, I told him I was in his area visiting friend who live a block away from his place. He offered me a meeting over coffee. I was happy with the offer but I still don't have a self confident to meet him face to face! I just don't know why! What is wrong with me? Why do I have this kind of low self esteem?.. I've been asking myself.. Or is this because of the 'keeping this between us' request I received from him earlier? Hmm..!

'You are in my area right now, why can't we meet? I don't understand! I will be busy with my football and futsal training after this holiday' his text said. I'd explained to him my situation, explained to him why I'm not ready to meet him yet.. but he sounds unhappy with it. His text said, 'If you're not in my area, I would understand. But you're so near to my place, that's all!'. 'Well, it's ok then!'

I asked him to continue with his paperwork he started earlier. 'I'm sorry.., I might change my mind later, I'll let you know.' my text said. Right after that, he's been quite.. without replying the text I've sent him.. I've been wondering, if he mad at me?? Gosh, what shall I do? I'll try my luck tomorrow! Hope he's not mad at me! :(

To: Poh Ling :P

To tell you the truth, I really enjoyed myself blogging. It just like I'm writing a journal or diary.. and I will try to write as much as possible.

It is really a satisfaction for me to let my follower informed on my latest update and happening in my daily life.. since we not be able to meet and to talk to each other very often.

So Pohling, I had proved you wrong! :) I love blogging!! :P

Liling and Pohling, thanks for being a great follower of my blog. To the rest of the reader (schoolmates and individual), thanks for reading my blog and keep on reading for my latest article! :)

Hari Raya Aidil Fitri..

Since I went to bed late last night (at 3.30am after sending and replying text with Faarhad! :) ), I don't really plan to wake-up early today. Yeah, it is the first day Hari Raya, but I didn't have that raya mode in me this year. I have to work and it really makes my raya spirit almost gone! :(

Abang Azli woke me up at 8.30am, but I was so sleepy and tired. I continue my sleep until 10.30am..

My house was a chaos this morning, everybody was busy getting ready for the with Hari Raya.. my nieces and nephew with their new baju kurung, baju kebaya and as well baju melayu! I was laying on the bed thinking, should I wear baju melayu today or should I not? After a long thought, I've made my decision! I will wear my baju melayu.. for not having a new baju melayu this year (as I was thinking that I have to work this year, why should I buy one!), it is a tough choice on which colour to pick!

Izat arrived at about 12.15pm, for a raya visit. Had my brunch with him, as usual ketupat (rice cooked in coconut leave) with chicken rendang (chicken cooked in coconut milk with lemon grass and herbs) and not forgetting the peanut sauce (yummy!). After everybody is ready, the highlight of Hari Raya is taking placed.. my family members will ask for forgiveness starting from the eldest to the youngest. The best part was, everybody was so sad.. saw tears came out from everybody eyes. Ahh, I just hate it! It makes me cry too! Yes, I did.. drop a few tears! Nothing to be shame of..

Then, my family tradition.. photo session! Had fun taking photos with all my family members today! I was so happy to be able to celebrate the Hari Raya with my beloved family. My gratitude to God for giving me a chance to live until today.. to be with my family on this special day.

I would like to wish you guys, Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri.. maaf, zahir & batin. Mohon ampun dan maaf dari hujung rambut hingga ke hujung kaki. Harap dihalalkan makan & minum selama perkenalan kita.. :)

Eve Of Hari Raya..

Yesterday, was quite a havoc in my house when both of my sisters and their family are around.. Kak Chik and her daughters as well as Ateh with her 3 children. They're here to celebrate Hari Raya AidilFitri with me.. but I have to work this year. Sad!! :(

My nieces and nephew are looking forward for the Hari Raya as they will collect a lot, I mean, a lot of 'duit raya' from the relatives. I wish I could be a child each time the raya comes.. that means, I will receive not giving!

Since there are 2 families in the house, both of my bedrooms are occupied, front bedroom for male and the second bedroom is for female. And Syafiqah is having his male friend to celebrate Hari Raya with our family this year..

Reached home at about 1.00am after pick-up my raya cookies from Azizi's house (a gift from Rin.. left over from his friend's cookies stall! Isn't it good to have a friend with benefit?!), my nieces and nephew are still awake.. playing the 'bunga api' (sparkler) and taking pictures. Then, Syafiqah cooked Maggie mee for them.



They really had fun! I haven't played with the firework or sparkler for a long time! The nostalgic childhood treasure hunter that I am nearly lost my footing and my mind is the King Cat sparklers and 'mercun das' that I grew up playing with! They'll forever be a part of my childhood Hari Raya memories. I really wish I could be a small kid again.. if I were to give a chance! :) I bet you guys will too right?