Wanna meet?

At 10.49pm, I received a text message from Faarhad, my 'Long Lost Friend' saying hello. I've just finished reading his blog from his MySpace 5 minutes ago! All his stories, feelings, happy and sad has been typed down in that blog. Now, after I read the blogs, I really understand how's his perspective towards his life, his vision and mission.

We've been replying text messages until about a 11.48pm, a touching message received from him, 'Sincerely, tis a great n happy feeling to finally get in touch with U after so long.. I really missed U a lot..'. Then he said, 'Time has passed, n I too have changed a lot.. maybe older, different appearance, etc, but I still believe that I am still the same, deep inside.. I have always cherished our great memories together as a close friends.' Aww.. he was so sweet. I do believe that he has not changed a lot inside, compared to his appearance now.

'I was touched by your presence.. missed U. Now :-) coz I've found U after so long.. :-)' he said to me. He still speaks and talk (in his text messages) just like the old days when we shared our special moments together. He's the same old Faarhad! I'm so glad.. :)

Right after work, I drove heading to Bandar Baru Sentul, to Sani's place visiting him for Hari Raya. Still replying text messages from Faarhad.. 'About me contacting U again, if possible, just keep it between us. Really appreciate it' his text said. Mmm..?? What is this suppose to mean? Why should me and him keeping this between us only? I was wondering..

In my text, I told him I was in his area visiting friend who live a block away from his place. He offered me a meeting over coffee. I was happy with the offer but I still don't have a self confident to meet him face to face! I just don't know why! What is wrong with me? Why do I have this kind of low self esteem?.. I've been asking myself.. Or is this because of the 'keeping this between us' request I received from him earlier? Hmm..!

'You are in my area right now, why can't we meet? I don't understand! I will be busy with my football and futsal training after this holiday' his text said. I'd explained to him my situation, explained to him why I'm not ready to meet him yet.. but he sounds unhappy with it. His text said, 'If you're not in my area, I would understand. But you're so near to my place, that's all!'. 'Well, it's ok then!'

I asked him to continue with his paperwork he started earlier. 'I'm sorry.., I might change my mind later, I'll let you know.' my text said. Right after that, he's been quite.. without replying the text I've sent him.. I've been wondering, if he mad at me?? Gosh, what shall I do? I'll try my luck tomorrow! Hope he's not mad at me! :(